I Hate Fibromyalgia!

Considering I just put myself and my feelings totally out there on my personal blog I decided to do the same thing here.  I hate being sick and I hate Fibromyalgia!  It is the stupidest, most retarded illness there ever was.  It makes absolutely no sense and then on top of that we get called crazy because we have it.  Most of us probably are crazy as hell, but it’s because we have been dealing with the insanity of our illness for way too long.

I get angry and I really try not to, but sometimes it’s unavoidable.  I know that this could be so much worse, but at night when the pain is really bad it does feel like the worst thing in the world.  It’s scary and lonely and that’s when all the emotion comes out.  I’ve prayed to die so many times and when you get to that point it changes you forever.  A few years ago I didn’t understand why so many of us give up and commit suicide.  I was one of those idiots who said “it’s not that bad”.  One night I found out why and now I’m reminded every day.  It’s bad.  There’s no other explanation needed…it’s bad…end of story.

I hope everyone is hanging in there today.  Gentle hugs and lots of love!