Fibromyalgia and Neurontin

I started taking Neurontin about 6 months ago.  The first 3 months I took 300 mg a day and for the last 3 months I have been on 900 mg a day.  It seemed to help with the pain, but over the last month during some major life changes I realized something.  It was making me extremely depressed.  I can’t be 100% that it’s the Neurontin, but I strongly believe that it is.  I’ve cut way back and my mood has improved greatly.  I feel like a different person.  Two weeks ago I wanted to die.  It was scary and it definitely wasn’t me.  I haven’t been suicidal since before my diagnosis more than a year ago.

It seems like every day is getting better.  Don’t get me wrong I’m still in some massive pain, but I’m happy and I’m ready to live my life.  It’s no secret anymore that I’m single again at 30 and that is so scary, but I’m ready for the challenge now.  I actually feel like I can do this.  I go back to the doctor soon, I’m going to talk to him about the Neurontin, and I may try to go without meds for a while and see what happens.  I’ve learned that I can deal with all the pain in the world as long as I’m mentally stable. 

We all know that there are a million unexpected turns in the Fibromyalgia journey, but it keeps life interesting.  That’s the way I like to see it anyway. I hope everyone is doing good and if anyone has any feedback on Neurontin please leave a comment and share your experience with it.