Fibromyalgia Symptoms that Make You Scream

It literally feels like my spine is on fire right now.  It hurts to move.  It hurts to write this post.  It just hurts.  It always hurts.  We all go through these kinds of feelings.  Sometimes I just want to scream because I can't take the pain anymore.  Sometimes I just want to give up, but I know I can't.

I have a feeling I'll be back in bed soon.  The pain is making me nauseous and basically right now it just hurts to function.  I'm not complaining.  I'm stating the facts of what it's like living with an invisible illness like Fibromyalgia.  Every day there is always something we have to deal with, whether be the never-ending pain, nausea, cognitive impairment, weight gain, blurred vision, hearing loss and the list goes on and on.  It's frustrating and overwhelming.

There are three symptoms of Fibro that I absolutely can't stand and they almost push me over the edge every time.  The first one is Costochondritis.  That is the worst pain ever.  The first time I experienced costo I thought I was dying.  The second one is the burning pain.  It has gotten so bad before that I've had to pack myself in ice packs.  It's horrible feeling like you're on fire.  The third is the cognitive dysfuction.  I've lost a lot of long-term memories and my short-term memory is getting worse and worse.  Cognitive impairments tend to make you feel very lost and alone.

Fibromyalgia in general can frustrate the living hell out of you very quicky, but what symptoms in particular really make you want to scream?

So Nauseous...

I took today off because the Fibro is out of control and I'm still up early.  Why?  Well because the Fibro is out of control.  My legs feel like they are on fire and I'm so nauseous I can't even take my meds because I will just puke them right back up.  They're too expensive to be doing that.

So I'm just sitting here writing this post trying to take my mind off of everything.  It's not really working, but it's keeping me busy nonetheless.  I hate when people tell me to just get my mind off the pain.  I feel like telling them to go slam their hand in a car door and then for them to try to get their minds off the pain.

Ok I guess that's my rant for the day.  At least it was 2 pages filled with obscenities. I'm handling things a lot better these days. I'm happy for the most part and that makes a world of difference when it comes to handling this monster.

I hope everyone has an awesome day! *Gentle Hugs*

We're Human

Another day, another flare.  All this amounts to is total frustration and a lot of pain.  Those of us with Fibromyalgia are used to it I guess to some extent.  I don't think you ever really get used to being in pain 24/7.  We all have those days when we wish we could just have one day without pain so we can remember what it feels like.  I wish that all the time.  I try not to though because it just makes it harder to deal with everything.

It seems like those around me expect me to be a pro at being sick or something.  I'm supposed to be able to handle it.  I'm supposed to be able to deal with how I feel.  I'm supposed to live my life as if nothing is wrong with me.  I've got news for everyone...I'm human.  I don't have superpowers and if you think my illness is confusing and hard to understand take the time to imagine what it's doing to me.  I don't understand either, but yet I'm forced to deal with it every day of my life.  No breaks, no vacations, nothing.  I don't deal with it very well, but I'm still learning.

That's how it is for all of us.  We have an illness that most doctor's don't even understand so we don't have a lot of weapons to defend ourselves with.  We don't always get the support we need, but we're strong and we're determined.  I've noticed that with all of us fibromites.  We have our bad days when we whine and cry, but then we have our days where we're ready to kick ass.  Again, we're human and we're adapting to something that has totally changed our lives.

I hope this makes some kind of sense.  My brain isn't exactly functioning at a 100% today.  I wish everyone an awesome afternoon.  *Gentle Hugs*