Living with Limitations

I didn’t do everything I wanted to do today, but I did do something.  I’ve learned to let go of the disappointment in myself when I can’t do everything and appreciate that I was able to get out of bed and do something no matter how small.  People may look at me on days like this and assume I’m lazy, but because I know what I have to live with every day, I know that this is one more day that I didn’t give up and that’s all that matters to me. 

Learning to live with limitations is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I don’t feel that I’ll ever fully accept it, but I’m trying.  I still have days I feel sorry for myself and then I get mad at myself for feeling that way.  I still have days I cry because I don’t remember what it feels like to not be sick and I still have days I just want to hide from the world.  Despite those days I keep on keeping on.  That’s all any of us can do…Keep living and keep fighting.

The pain is really bad right now so I’m going to go cuddle with my heating pad.  I hope everyone is having a good day/night. Gentle hugs and lots of love.