What Would You Do If You Didn't Have Fibromyalgia?

I’ve had Fibromyalgia for at least 25 years and I’ve always wondered what it would be like to not have it.  Can you imagine the freeness of having no pain?  I think about all the things I would do.  I’m pretty sure I would get myself into a lot of trouble!  It would be fun to just be normal.  Well, there’s no part of me that has ever been normal, but you know what I mean.  Maybe the word healthy would fit better there.

I try not to get down and do the whole “why me?” thing.  I know it could be so much worse, but every now and then I can’t help but have a pity party.  It’s exhausting living in a chronically ill body.  The simple things are difficult to do and the difficult things are almost impossible to do.  Some days they are impossible to do.  My brain has all these ideas of what needs to be done, but my body does not always agree.  It’s frustrating not being able to do what you want to do when you want to do it. 

Every day I fight to do as much as I possibly can.  Some days I succeed and sometimes I don’t.  I’ve learned to accept that for the most part, but it still hurts and the guilt doesn’t go away.  It’s hard to handle feeling guilty for something you have no control over, but it’s all part of Fibromyalgia.  Healthy folks have no idea what that feels like.  It can make you miserable if you let it.  Don’t let it.

What are some of the things you would like to do if you didn’t have Fibromyalgia?  I would go dancing all the time, play sports (I love softball, volleyball and basketball.) and my house would be spotless all the time!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day/night.  Gentle hugs and lots of love!