I’ve said many times that Fibromyalgia is so much more than
chronic pain, and I still agree with that.
What hurts me the most is the brain fog.
That’s what makes me feel like less of a person…less like me. I’m a writer who now doesn’t feel like a
writer, because on most days I can’t think.
Not being able to construct a complete sentence or find the right words,
makes it almost impossible to write anything.
It frustrates me, because all I’ve ever wanted to do is write…about
anything and everything. I had a few
dreams along with writing, but when I realized that the pain was never going to
go away, writing became my safe place. I
thought that no matter how my body failed me that I would still be able to
write. I didn’t know that I was going to
have to fight to keep that too.
There was a point I just wanted to give up, but I realized
that if I did I would completely lose the person I used to be. I’m not ready to do that. I’ll never be ready to do that. So I’ve began to take steps to help me handle
the brain fog. I try to exercise my
brain as much as possible by reading and writing even when I don’t feel like I
comprehend properly or even if what I’m writing makes no sense at all. I’ve found that if I keep at it, it starts to
get a little easier. I’m able to
eventually retain some of what I’m reading and my writing begins to flow more
smoothly. I also try to exercise every
day, even if it’s just a little walk. It
helps me think more clearly and overall it makes me feel better.
I hope that I continue to learn more ways to help with the
brain fog. I’ve learned to live with the
pain, but I can’t live with losing who I am.
How do you handle the brain fog?
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