Life has been slightly more difficult lately, not bad, just
difficult. The illnesses have gained up
on me and the fatigue and pain is overwhelming at times. I’m close to feeling defeated, but I keep
fighting. No matter how tired I am I try
to accomplish something. It helps keep
that feeling of defeat at bay for a little while longer.
I have so much I need to do, but my body feels heavy and my
muscles are so tight that I’m afraid to sneeze because it hurts like hell. All day today I’ve tried to put as many
positive thoughts in my head as possible, because I have to keep my mind
strong, because my body is struggling.
I’ve felt like I’ve been in this slump for way too long, but
I think back to this time last year and I was feeling about the same way. There always seems to be a strange pattern
with illnesses like Fibromyalgia. I
understand it a little more now, but so much of it is still a mystery. That’s what makes it so hard to deal
with. I’m the type of person who wants
to know details about how things function and how things work. I’m the same way with my illnesses,
especially Fibro. There are so many
questions that have no answers. That
alone drives me crazy and I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels that way.
I’m probably rambling at this point. I’m surprised I can compose a complete
sentence. I hope all of you are as well
as possible. If you’re not and want to
rant about it then please feel free to do so here. Sometimes you just have to cry, yell and
scream to feel better. There’s no shame
in that.
Gentle Hugs and Lots of Love!
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