Can I Run Away Now?

Do you ever get the urge to just run away?  Do you just want to run away from the pain and everyone around you so that for just maybe one moment you can breathe?  That’s what I’m feeling right now.  The pain is too intense to be able to handle the normal life stuff and everyone is pushing me over the edge. I just want to run away from everything, but especially the Fibro.  I just can’t handle it today, not with everything else going on.  We all know that we don’t have that luxury though.  We can’t just run and hide from the pain and other frustrating symptoms.  Our only choices are to stand tall and fight back or lie down and die.  I’m trying my hardest to stand tall and fight, but on days like this it’s so hard.  I guess that’s why I write more when I’m in a flare.  It’s my own personal escape, my release. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through the day, but I know that somehow I will make it through. To all of those who are sick and finding it hard to make it through the day may you find the strength you need to keep fighting and the courage to keep on keeping on.   


Hi, Cristina. I know how you feel. Writing is a gift, because there's something easier about pain that's given a voice, rather than hidden pain that you have to cover up with fake smiles and loud laugher. Just, perhaps, don't dismiss your pain as an enemy that you have to keep fighting. It's not going to go away, so perhaps you can make peace with it. Ask it what it wants to tell you. Listen to what it needs. Sometimes pain is a gift sent to tell us to do something different, to go down a different path. Pain changes our lives, and not always in a bad way. Your pain led you to create this blog and to write these words, and perhaps that is your gift.


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