I didn’t do everything I wanted to do today, but I did do
something. I’ve learned to let go of the
disappointment in myself when I can’t do everything and appreciate that I was
able to get out of bed and do something no matter how small. People may look at me on days like this and
assume I’m lazy, but because I know what I have to live with every day, I know
that this is one more day that I didn’t give up and that’s all that matters to
me.
Learning to live with limitations is the hardest thing I’ve ever
had to do and I don’t feel that I’ll ever fully accept it, but I’m trying. I still have days I feel sorry for myself and
then I get mad at myself for feeling that way.
I still have days I cry because I don’t remember what it feels like to
not be sick and I still have days I just want to hide from the world. Despite those days I keep on keeping on. That’s all any of us can do…Keep living and
keep fighting.
The pain is really bad right now so I’m going to go cuddle
with my heating pad. I hope everyone is
having a good day/night. Gentle hugs and lots of love.
