Horrible Night


These words, excruciating pain, heartbreak, fear, hopeless and helpless, and a few more explicit ones can be used to describe the night I had last night.  I’ve been sick for a long time and last night was the first time in a very long time that I had new pain.   Since it was a new, extremely intense pain I couldn’t relax so that caused me to have really bad muscle spasms, which made the pain worse and all this basically made me totally flip out.  I had a few anxiety attacks and my blood pressure got extremely high.  I really should have went to the emergency room, but by the time it got really bad I was so miserable and pissed off that I was afraid I would tell off or beat up a doctor or nurse before it was all over.

Anyways the point of this story is that even though I wanted to die last night, I survived.  I’m stronger now and hopefully I won’t have to test out my new found strength tonight.  I just want to sleep!  If any of you have any tips for getting through really bad pain nights/days please share them.  I rely mainly on music and various distractions like my really sweet boyfriend who always tries to talk me through it…sometimes nothing seems to help though.

I hope everyone is having a good day/night.  Gentle hugs and lots of love!

1 comments:

LOL Hi Cristina here I am again this is where I tried to post a bit ago Binaural Beats help me a lot on certain days,they have really changed my life I had no idea that I had been ill since childhood,and suffered many types of trauma throughout my life time until I started with this treatment 3 years ago now, Delta Binaural beats, and good headphones will knock you out. it's just sound but it synchronizes your brain waves and settles you down enough that you will sleep. Before I found them I would sleep from 10 minutes to an hour when I first went to bed then always woke up thrashing in agony. please give it a try, and if it works for you then share it with your FM friends.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLq3DYXpAm8

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